I'm going to add this blog to the Glow in the Woods blogroll this week to commemorate C and R's second birthday. This means that someone else (other than me and my ever-supportive spouse) might actually read it...yikes!
A few notes for anyone who may be reading--
1) I'm a grammar disaster. I probably shouldn't even use the word 'grammar' to modify 'disaster' but there you have it. I fling commas and fragments around like confetti and can't figure out the difference between a dependent and independent clause. My inner thoughts and feelings spilled out in electronic form for all to see...no problem. My poor grasp of the English language--shameful. (yes, it is my native tongue)
2) It's been almost two years since R died. My condition, therefore, is downgraded from distraught madwoman to shower-crier. If I had attempted to write about any of the events surrounding C and R's birth in real-time it would have been a train-wreck--piles upon piles of rage and contempt--not helpful for anyone. I'm amazed by folks who have the presence of mind to write thoughtfully as the flames are licking at their heels--amazed.
3) I'm not really like Ms. Mommicked in my everyday life. I come here to vent the less-than-happy thoughts rolling around in my head. Remarkably I've gotten to a place where I think about things other than R's death and C's safety/welfare/mortality during the course of the day. Yesterday I injured my foot while dancing to this. Someday I may progress enough that I'll remember to warm up first.
So, what's a lousy writer with waning grief issues doing writing a blog?
We have to support each other.
I may not be the most eloquent writer. You may not agree with my opinions. At some point I'll run out of things to say and dust bunnies will collect in my corner of the internets. I may, however, have traveled the same path that you're on right now.
You're not alone--even if you're stuck with a blowhard who can't use a semi-colon properly and lets her precious, surviving child watch frenetic TV programs.
You're not alone.
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Well I am very, very glad that you are here.
ReplyDeleteMy grammar is also completely appalling. I certainly can't use a semi-colon properly. My sentences are either peppered with commas or lacking them entirely. I wasn't even aware of the existence of dependent and independent clauses, as you've probably noticed.
I am all for frenetic television programs. I can completely understand how you injured your foot, I've come close myself. They have started screening this in the UK and I love it. My favourite is the green hairy one with long arms but I think my very own precious, surviving child likes the red, bumpy alien thing best!
Thank you for writing. I'm glad I'm not alone. xo