tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2851980518254014125.post4626936831611350070..comments2023-10-01T02:15:58.234-07:00Comments on mommicked: The DifferenceTracyOChttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16227348728165440844noreply@blogger.comBlogger14125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2851980518254014125.post-9515562531007268252012-04-02T09:59:59.842-07:002012-04-02T09:59:59.842-07:00I am envious of those dreams. Somehow, even my sub...I am envious of those dreams. Somehow, even my subconscious can't muster up enough imagination to make Calla come true. But I get it, those holy-motherfucking-shit dreams where you feel like Rocky at the top of the stairs.<br /><br />It makes me so sad for your Dad that he had to endure that feeling of needing to work just to live. That, to put it scientifically, blows. Why can't we as a Mary Bethhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12212750107782259674noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2851980518254014125.post-73487921158249613282012-04-02T05:34:44.987-07:002012-04-02T05:34:44.987-07:00Thanks for backing me up on Dad's experience. ...Thanks for backing me up on Dad's experience. Maybe you'll see Hope someday when you can string more than 2 hours of sleep together at a time...TracyOChttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16227348728165440844noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2851980518254014125.post-73804071164024674252012-04-02T05:33:48.280-07:002012-04-02T05:33:48.280-07:00Yup, the faith in hard work...so hard to let it go...Yup, the faith in hard work...so hard to let it go (or explain it to anyone without first-hand knowledge).<br /><br />And--back off, lady. Ira's mine!TracyOChttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16227348728165440844noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2851980518254014125.post-31955283262588163202012-04-02T05:32:38.408-07:002012-04-02T05:32:38.408-07:00I think the biggest hurdle I've had to clear o...I think the biggest hurdle I've had to clear over the past four+ years is not thinking that everyone without an 'IT' is a complete moron (including the old version of me). I want to move past it but I just can't seem to. <br /><br />Also, here's hoping you see your boy sometime...TracyOChttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16227348728165440844noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2851980518254014125.post-42975636487915583072012-03-30T16:52:56.708-07:002012-03-30T16:52:56.708-07:00"To be unencumbered".
That's the lin..."To be unencumbered".<br />That's the line that struck me the most as well.<br />Your dad did deserve better. That said, I am glad you see him in your dreams. I think I have dreamt of Hope once, and it was only a few weeks after she was born. I can't see her in this realm, but I wish I could see her elsewhere, even if it was only my dreams.<br />Love to you.Hope's Mamahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04984543289642681339noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2851980518254014125.post-9198666852197911372012-03-29T17:29:05.975-07:002012-03-29T17:29:05.975-07:00"I actually was a world-killer once. Maybe no..."I actually was a world-killer once. Maybe not the smartest or most beautiful or wealthiest but lucky enough that I didn't even recognize lucky. My world felt like something that would come when I whistled and would submit to my will. And, back then, I thought it was something that I had earned. Something that anyone could figure out if they just took the time or made the effort."<briannahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03703767053224975771noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2851980518254014125.post-59005983243700773682012-03-28T05:30:10.490-07:002012-03-28T05:30:10.490-07:00Yes, I used to feel that way, too - Life is good a...Yes, I used to feel that way, too - Life is good and it's because I made it that way. But then IT happened, and well, I now know enough to see how stupid I used to be. Life is not something to control, is unable to be controlled, although I wish it was.<br /><br />I also wish I saw Micah in my dreams, even just once, but I never do.Jennhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16614232173945249682noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2851980518254014125.post-38033931387534426092012-03-27T04:15:14.550-07:002012-03-27T04:15:14.550-07:00As usual, my post is sort of a thought-Frankenstei...As usual, my post is sort of a thought-Frankenstein--a patchwork fully animated by some external source of energy. I don't think that I want to be a world-killer or that anybody should be one. It's a phrase that popped into my head when I started thinking about that seemingly unbridgeable gap between parents who have lost a child and parents who have all of their children present and TracyOChttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16227348728165440844noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2851980518254014125.post-25104672592752639942012-03-27T04:06:05.434-07:002012-03-27T04:06:05.434-07:00Regarding the circumstances for R and Georgina, so...Regarding the circumstances for R and Georgina, sometimes I feel like I have happiness complicated by grief rather than the other way around. When the what-ifs start adding up, I see that death may not have been the worst outcome for R. And then I start to worry about the wider implications of that notion--for other people, for other children. <br /><br />Whether it's temperament or TracyOChttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16227348728165440844noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2851980518254014125.post-12007821669333786692012-03-27T04:00:47.723-07:002012-03-27T04:00:47.723-07:00@ Groves - I hear what you're saying. I don&#...@ Groves - I hear what you're saying. I don't really want lasting misery for anyone else. I just want them to get a taste that primes the pump of compassion and perspective. Best to you.<br /><br />@m - let me get in touch with a lawyer and work out the bugs on my plan. Then I'll build a widget or something to collect names.TracyOChttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16227348728165440844noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2851980518254014125.post-84983184596450764712012-03-26T15:07:47.872-07:002012-03-26T15:07:47.872-07:00Unencumbered - So often I wish I could sink into t...Unencumbered - So often I wish I could sink into that word and never come out. I miss that feeling. Some days I miss it so much that I feel a little guilty about it. It's good, I think, not to be a world-killer, but it's not easy.ericahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06347057746449071812noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2851980518254014125.post-6338056368338228802012-03-26T14:44:25.932-07:002012-03-26T14:44:25.932-07:00Oh Tracy. I like your description of your Busby-Be...Oh Tracy. I like your description of your Busby-Berkeley type dreams and surreal games of duck-duck-goose. I do love the elaborate ones, when I wake feeling all interested and intrigued. Yours sound much more interesting than mine, house elves and airports in the attic. <br /><br />I didn't know who Ira Glass was so I had to go and look him out, he looks pretty cute. <br /><br />I can't Catherine Whttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01618295389400457254noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2851980518254014125.post-323824970624004192012-03-26T08:37:32.721-07:002012-03-26T08:37:32.721-07:00"I wish I had some coherent solution but I ju..."I wish I had some coherent solution but I just end up wanting to punch people in the face. Like, "Wake-up, asshole! You're not deserving. You're lucky." Like, "You didn't deserve that broken nose, did you? Well, there's a little taste of unlucky for you. Hope you have insurance. Hope some doctor who went to med school on the taxpayer dime is willing to help mhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07830332489753742950noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2851980518254014125.post-14532419347798008812012-03-26T08:11:20.686-07:002012-03-26T08:11:20.686-07:00Ira's Glass (es), ha ~!
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I want some so...Ira's Glass (es), ha ~!<br /><br />*****<br /><br />I want some sort of magic mist to settle over America and make everyone feel lost and hopeless...together.<br /><br />{Though it might seem, not because I crave everyone miserable. Anything to usher some perspective. Please.}<br /><br />*****<br /><br />Some people, too many people, start out unlucky and never manage to find the other sideGroveshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14867095709948739457noreply@blogger.com